I know I've mentioned this before a
Of course I've already made a self-imposed limit to have the first one before 30, no matter what. So I figured with that to be on the safe side we should start trying at 28. But even then, nothing is guaranteed. I start wondering- what if we run into problems. What if it takes longer than I think to get preggo? Should we start now? But then I think about how hairy it would be to have a baby right now. We are in so much transition already.
Sometimes I wish it would just happen so that the decision is made for me. So I don't over-analyze it. Right now I just can't convince myself to even try. Because if you try and are successful right away, there's no un-doing that deed. Not that I would want to. I am sure if I were pregnant I would be excited and yet still a little scared as all women are. But since right now the decision is still based on logistics and logistically it doesn't make sense, here I sit. On birth control which is working very well.
Everyday at my job I see only children struggle to take care of their aging parents. I see elderly people who have no relatives at all to care for them. I even told the hubby the other day we need to have 3 or 4 just to hopefully increase our chances that in our old age our kids can help us out. Without it being too much of a burden on any single one of them. Now I know having lots of kids does not guarantee that they'll take care of you. I've also met people who have 8 children and no one to help them. But, I think it does help your chances. Especially if you are nice to them and make it easy for them to help you :)
Anyway, even if I spend the next eight months debating whether to go ahead and start trying, at least at the end of them the decision will be made. Since I've already made a plan to start trying then. That is if I don't chicken out... :)